Doubt is a powerful enemy. Even as a pastor who has a strong belief in God, I doubt. I fully believe that God is intervening in His creation, yet there are times I doubt. Perhaps it will be comforting for someone to know that even pastors have doubts and questions.
The longer I live, the less I get hung up on my doubts. There are several reasons for this-
1. I understand I have a limited perspective and therefore it is impossible for me to answer these doubts fully. I therefore trust that God has a better perspective than me.
2. I understand that these doubts would exist if I were to abandon my belief in God. I would still have doubts. I would simply doubt that he doesn’t exist. Or to say it clearer- I would wonder if He did exist. Doubt is inescapable for both the theist and the atheist and anyone who denies this is fooling themselves.
3. I understand that doubt is necessary for faith. And if doubts are unavoidable, I should focus more on what I want to have faith in, rather than what I doubt. For this reason, I find myself respecting an atheist who believes he has a limited time to live and love his family than I do a Christian who lives in fear and never puts his faith into practice.
We all have a world view that is based upon what we believe to be true or what we have faith is true. I choose to operate from a worldview that God exists, has revealed himself, and is intervening in His creation.